mindspew.
The further down you go into any rabbit hole,
the more difficult the process of presenting your experience
(to those who haven't been down that hole) will be
In the end, we all travel down separate rabbit holes,
some are just deeper and wider. twistier than others.
trenches are easer to describe than all of the turns
of a shifting tunnel dark in the middle of the unknown
I suppose the more curious of us are cursed with the need to find Out
and those of us who attempt to re-present those explorations
inevitably enjoy the friction that accompanies the transference of information
and at times I do wonder about the futility and ultimate inability
to effectively convey our experiences fully to another
but we all live in our semantic matrix - the linguistic underpinnings that our perceptions are thus labeled within. Words create our describable world - but they are an after-experience - language is not the way we see the world, it is simply the way we attempt to impart that which we have already seen
most of our experiences can only be REpresented in words...
else it's another experience - not being symbolically REpresented!
words; symbolic constructs of our paradigm
and... no matter how often you shatter your paradigm, you still exist in a paradigm
there is no escape from paradigm, other than the cessation of awareness
I don't want to cling to a belief system for comfort
I want to know what the hell is going on
even if it hurts a lot
and if I can't know Truth, or if I can't fathom it when presented,
they wont say that it was because I didn't care
.... I'm sorry, it's beyond My control
layers, levels, slippery semantics and an overarching sense of futility...
that may very well be the scent that follows Me down that final rabbit hole.
but I do not intend to go quietly
